It's amazing how thoroughly lost you can get when you think you are going the right direction.
Almost 5 years ago, I headed off down the road to an office job that I thought was a great fit.
It wasn't.
Nope, not at all.
And I could sit here & write an entry that would rival War & Peace about that experience...
But it's over, & done with, & like every bad relationship, in retrospect, I learned a lot. Better to leave all the junk behind me & move on.
Which I did.
I spent 10 weeks trying to "find" myself, which is pretty funny because I was "here" all along. I had just lost sight of what I loved to do, where I wanted to be, and, most importantly, who I am.
The best job I ever had was being a mom; & I was always pretty darned good at it. And all of a sudden, I had my life back, & plenty of time to do it! My new-found freedom gave me the opportunity to bake again, to create recipes again, to dust behind the TV again! (Oh, don't judge me, no one ever looks back there anyway!) I cooked, & cleaned, & organized, & decorated to my heart's content. I even had time to pick up a book & curl up with the cats.
~sigh~
It was wonderful.
During that time, I looked for work. Diligently. Sometimes up to 4 applications a day. And found... NOTHING! Nope, nobody seemed to want me & my skill set. It got to be quite discouraging.
So... I cooked, & cleaned, & organized more. I decked the halls, & hosted the Holidays, & quite thoroughly enjoyed being home.
But I missed the paycheck. Not the job, just the cash. And the shoe shopping. And the lattes. And the wine collecting.
So... I kept looking, & applying, & checking the inbox & the voicemail, & listening to all my friends say, "Don't worry."
Until one day, I answered a little ad that simply read "Circuit Coach". I had NO idea what that was, so of COURSE I had to click on it. And apply for it. And, much to my surprise, INTERVIEW for it.
And here I am, off in a new direction. One that I never saw coming, but that was right in front of me the entire time. And I get to use my "mom" skills as well as all my "work" related experience to make a difference in the lives of some wonderful women.
Sometimes, you just need to pause on the journey, look up, say out loud "Where the heck am I?" & get your bearings. And then head off in the opposite direction.
:)
